I’m tumbling like a fool as a form of procrastination.
Does someone want to write this paper for me?
FUCK Thanksgiving “break”! It may be a break for all you people not in film making, but I am in no way getting an actual break from any school work until winter break comes around. And believe me, winter break couldn’t come any faster, I need it here now. I NEED A BREAK!
I’m in the library, trying real hard to write my art history paper. I wish I was not able to connect to the internet, because it is ohhhhh so distracting, but I need it, for some of my information. GOD DAMN! I have a test tomorrow that I need to be studying for, but I can’t because I need to get a lot of this paper done, so I can worry about it less. I HAVE TO DO GOOD ON THIS PAPER! I HAVE TO PASS THIS CLASS! Otherwise I can be kicked out of school. Thank you Kenzie Colby for fucking up my mind during midterms last year, causing me to be on academic probation….cunt. This gives me one more reason to hate you. This probation shit has put me under a whole new level of stress this year. I cannot handle thissasDFJAKSDLFjasldkhjfadsUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!
If you can read it, do you love that piece of shit paragraph I”m gonna try and pass as an intro haha. This is my life right now. Lady Sovereign being awesome, Fritz Lang being a stress, and well…yeah, that’s about it haha.
I don’t think I mentioned how much unsafer I feel in my apartment now. I mean, I already didn’t feel safe there, but as of last night (thank god I was in Olathe) I feel a shit ton worse about where I live. Two people were shot and killed on Armour blvd. last night, the woman, was 36 weeks pregnant…seriously WHAT THE FUCK?! Who kills a pregnant woman? Really, that’s just fucking sick. That also happened two blocks east of where I live…sweet right.
fuck
I understand, we all need time sometimes. You need your time, you’re not ready, but the way things are going, it doesn’t seem like it. People ask me all the time, and I never know how to answer, because you said you’re not ready. I don’t want to rush you, I don’t want to push you, I’ll wait, I’ll take my time, I’ll sit here with your hand in mine, until you are ready. I just wish I could say this to you, I am ready, I’ve never really felt like I was ready for anything, I’m always a little skeptical about these kinds of things, but I’m ready, and I will still be ready when you’ve decided you are. I’ll wait, I just wish you’d be ready faster.
You make me smile.
I like you.
